Ok...so I took art in High School and a ceramics class in College eons ago and just scraped by. I can see beauty from the lens of a camera, distort it if I want and make it into something it may not have been but can I paint?
I see the beauty of the landscape and draw it into my mind but how do I get it to hands and transfer it to the surface of the canvas?
I birth two children who have the natural talent of the arts and are painters in their own right. It just flows natural to them. Did it skip a generation?
Could it be that I never really took the time to try? I always seem to be in a hurry. Never slowing down. Some people would say that I have ADD! I don't. I use to be so ambitious that I forgot to take time for me and sometimes for my girls. I was a corporate slave! Dare I say that? Don't get me wrong. I was just someone who had to be perfect. Make the right decisions and do everything the right way. I forgot along the way that it is ok to mess up....not make a perfect cut or line or whatever!
Then.....I got cancer. The big C. It slowed me down. It made me look at the world in a different way. It convicted me! I don't have to be perfect. I don't have to be the smartest. I don't have to be the best of the best....know it all. It is ok to just be me.......
Anyway, I have this blank canvas. I painted it with gesso and that is as far as I got. Afraid? Maybe. Determined? I should be. Can I do it? Probably. Will I? Yes. When? I don't know. Scared to mess it up? You betcha! Do I care? I must because it is still a blank canvas. Staring me in the face just asking to be finished ....well, at least to be started......
Stay tuned. I will. When? I dont' know ...but I guarantee when I do it will be something.....maybe not perfect but it will be something!
I see the beauty of the landscape and draw it into my mind but how do I get it to hands and transfer it to the surface of the canvas?
I birth two children who have the natural talent of the arts and are painters in their own right. It just flows natural to them. Did it skip a generation?
Could it be that I never really took the time to try? I always seem to be in a hurry. Never slowing down. Some people would say that I have ADD! I don't. I use to be so ambitious that I forgot to take time for me and sometimes for my girls. I was a corporate slave! Dare I say that? Don't get me wrong. I was just someone who had to be perfect. Make the right decisions and do everything the right way. I forgot along the way that it is ok to mess up....not make a perfect cut or line or whatever!
Then.....I got cancer. The big C. It slowed me down. It made me look at the world in a different way. It convicted me! I don't have to be perfect. I don't have to be the smartest. I don't have to be the best of the best....know it all. It is ok to just be me.......
Anyway, I have this blank canvas. I painted it with gesso and that is as far as I got. Afraid? Maybe. Determined? I should be. Can I do it? Probably. Will I? Yes. When? I don't know. Scared to mess it up? You betcha! Do I care? I must because it is still a blank canvas. Staring me in the face just asking to be finished ....well, at least to be started......
Stay tuned. I will. When? I dont' know ...but I guarantee when I do it will be something.....maybe not perfect but it will be something!
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